May

Ah, such a busy, busy month of May! We had our play, "Sylvia", it was Tina's last play in with our theater group, so it was bittersweet for everyone. She was a fine doggie, and apparently I played "a very convincing drunk" as Kate, the wife that hates the dog. Jim G. was Greg, the husband besotted with the dog, Tracy P. as Kate's best friend from Vassar, Phyliss; Elayne M. as the gender confused therapist, Leslie; and Greg V. as the equally besotted dog owner, Jim. It was grand fun!





Then, the next week, my very own star baby Jade was a hit as Sally in "You're a Good Man, Charlie Brown!" She amazed me with her singing ability and comedic ability... just amazed! This kid can really belt out a song like nobody else. To say I went each night was an understatement, you couldn't keep me away! It was awesome, and she was absolutely adorable. She broke up with her boyfriend, and is realizing the difference between nice guys and dogs, and is a pretty good judge of character.




Dylan just took his AP English exam today, won the award for the highest grade in his Chemistry I class, and has been such a delightful child this spring. He is still dating the lovely Jessica, his hair is still long down his back, and he is still playing the guitar so well.

Dirk just got another job, one with the segueway things, and new one helping with a ropes course and gaining co-op credit hours for doing so. I'll miss not having him home for the summer, but he is so happy and doing so well.. it's time for me to loosen those apron strings even more.

Nothing has happened on the "proposal". Zip, zoodle, nothing. Just as it should be, probably. I think that we are better as friends than as spouses, something just doesn't ever seem to click well. And it should, shouldn't it? Honestly, I just think that I would "know" if it was right, and I've never had that feeling. I imagine he will find someone that is more suited to him, and that I will just float around until the right everything happens, whatever that is. For now, I am very happy to have the man with too many children as my good friend, and although the whole idea was intoxicating for a while, it just doesn't seem to be going to happen. And that is okay.

A woman from church told me that some women are just not meant for marriage, is that me?? In the spirit of "The Secret", I don't want to put negativity out there. The right thing will happen at the right time with the right person and I will recognize and embrace this...whatever it is God thinks is what I need for my path and to be happy...because I think I deserve some romantic happiness, finally!

so, bless all the people out there that need prayers, those that need love, holding, healing, food, shelter, safety and hope.

My heart is overflowing with gratitude for the abundance I have, these three healthy wonderful children, a family in Maine that loves me, a home to live in and a car to drive, food in our home and electricity and water and appliances that work. A job that I adore, and a hobby that sometimes pays. Friends that are as dear as family, and books to keep me happy. A soulmate would be great, but I can wait until it is the right time for that.

Thank you, God, Jesus, guardian angels and spirit guides. Thank you sun and moon and temperatures that are so lovely I catch my breath. Thank you for blue skies and flowers that bloom, and for our adorable dogs and cats. Thank you Earth, Universe, and beyond. All is good, all is calm, and I am grateful for the opportunity to be so thankful.